Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Still

Still
What I want in my life is to be willing to be dazzled.
To cast aside the weight of the facts,
and even to float a little above this difficult world.
I want to believe that the imperfections are nothing,
that the light is everything.
I want to believe I am looking into the white fire of a great mystery.
And I do.
- Mary Oliver


The pretty blue pot next to my living room window caught my eye the other day. I am smiling as I write this post because so far like clockwork my little fairy friends come and greet me every April with their pretty checked skirts. And I didn't even ask them to to! They remind me that everything is in perfect rhythm. That without being told what to do, they just know when it is time to grow. I've been learning to cultivate this kind of knowing in my own life lately. To relate to my body and own spirit with the same kind of spontaneity and knowing. I am moving deeper into trusting that my mind is here to serve this universal intelligence, not the other way around. I have spent so much of my life moving myself from here to there with my Will. And now I am learning to embrace another way. The more I still myself and drop down into the part of me that just "knows" how to become, the more interesting things get.

As I learn to get out of my own way, I grow deeper in love with being alive, beauty and all the possibilities that this amazing life experience has to offer.

Maybe someday I will get to have a fairy skirt like my checker lilly friends too! J